feelings~

hello blog :)
it's been so many times since my last update.. kinda have some busy activities, no need to worry I'M ALIVE *at least for now xP*

okay. i feel so unrelieved, tired, and hesitating life and love..
why? do not ask. i dont know either :(
it's just... my days are good, always being better.
but.. i dont know.
the feeling is came up sometimes.
the bad feeling.
like somehow, suddenly i want to cry. i'm being too pushed to others. and i hate it, then i'm going to tear my eyes off.
but.. i can't.
i dont want to tell you why. i just can't.
and when i'm not crying, the bad and disappoint feels are disappear.
BUT SUDDENLY IT's STILL COME AND COME AGAIN!!!
like nightmare..

i want this to end..
i just dont feel it anymore.
THIS JUST DOESN'T FIT ME ANYMORE!

like someone has said to me: black, purple, and dark colors are mine. i looks awesome in that colors.
and..
THIS THINGYTHINGS, are like YELLOW or GREEN.
it doesn't fit me.
i'm not comfy.
and..

i don't know.
i just dont like this :(